And so it is official-- the end of one adventure ushers in the beginning of an incredible, very different new one. After an excruciating two months of scattered ideas, disparate thoughts, and incomplete plans, the best case scenario has somehow come to fruition. I feel compelled to write this entry as a personal reminder to not give up on the dream, no matter what anyone says or what you may have to give up to do it. The job: OneSeed Expeditions in Denver, CO, bringing adventurous and socially conscious travelers to sought after destinations for weeks of trekking, camping, and experiencing the local culture. With part of the sale going toward women to start businesses in Nepal, my philanthropic contributory itch is satisfied. My role: bringing these trips into people's lives anyway I know how and helping this incredible start up grow. For me, the mission of finding the perfect balance, that essential transition out of the epic vagabond adventure and back into functional society, is deemed a success.
As always, there has been a massive lesson learned as I fit together more pieces of the giant puzzle we call life. There is a natural flow of things. It's our responsibility to adamantly strive for what feels right down to our core. I am living proof. As the dollars dwindled and loud voices of discouraging forces challenged my big plans, I somehow managed to mottle through and keep pushing for what I knew was right. Contemplation of settlement constantly plagued me, festering when complacency fell upon me, but I knew that it would drive me crazy to do something out of desperation that felt so wrong.
What I've discovered is that as you persist in carving out your path, the core feeling of either dread, or excitement, contentment, or discomfort become increasingly striking and impossible to ignore. It's scary to start with nothing and figure out what to do with your life, seemingly out of mid air. But there are signs, and when you listen to that internal voice with complete assurance and confidence, it will tell you what to do. Have faith that there is order to it all. Making sacrifices and being persistent and patient are part of the challenge, but in the end it's worth the roller coaster ride.
So now begins a new life. There is hard work ahead and closing the door on this phase of free spirited travel and discovery still leaves me with twinges of sadness now and again. With that said, finally I feel a sense of satisfaction and closure with this chapter. Jumping back on a plane to run off to Spain or some other foreign locale is no longer a tempting distraction. Instead I have a feeling of deep appreciation for all of those supremely meaningful experiences and, in retrospect, I can say with complete assurance that the time spent abroad, every ounce of it, was precious. It achieved what it was intended to achieve and so much more. Denver will bring a new type of fulfillment to the forefront as I am at last ready to dedicate my time and energy into something bigger than myself. The previously terrifying idea of commitment is now the one thing I welcome. Hello new life, I think we are going to get on quite well.
I leave this entry with a quote that sums it up quite perfectly:
"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma- which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary." -Steve Jobs