That thing is happening again. That moment in time when everything seems profound and special, where I grasp on to every detail of life, trying to form a mental image and catalog it into a special point of reference in my mind. That sensation of being alive every waking moment and when I'm sleeping having the most vivid, moving dreams. I've missed this feeling. I never thought I'd find it again after I returned from backpacking. And there's no telling what it is that is bringing this way of experiencing life back into the forefront. I suppose it's a myriad of things... living in a new place, separated from all things familiar and easy... but what's different now is that I have feeling that I'm beginning to understand it all a bit clearer. That this fabulous feeling comes from within, not from the environment in which I live. (Although it certainly doesn't hurt that I live in tranquil, scenic Tao) For me, sometimes to be away, really away, is what it takes to understand what makes me feel amazing and connected and alive. In less than a week I'm there once again. And like a waterfall of coincidences, people are flowing into my life just at the right time, adding extra inspiration to my world and gaining their own inspiration from me. New connections with fascinating people here are flooding in, and reigniting relationships with people back on the other side of the Atlantic. All the pieces are coming together, or actually, they all seem to be together, even if there are still many unanswered questions. It's all about perspective, point of view, and to me all those other factors like geography and career and money and so on are details. I'll end this one with a quote that my good friend back home just sent me moments ago that reminded her of me and reminds me of why I starting doing this all in the first place:
"When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break their bonds. Your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in every direction, and you find yourself in a new, great and wonderful world. Dormant forces, faculties and talents become alive, and you discover yourself to be a greater person by far than you ever dreamed yourself to be."
Thank you for that Lex, and thanks to those of you who read this and get why I put it out there. Hopefully you can relate to the feeling and are on your own path toward being content :)