Three months have passed since my epic Europe adventure came to a close. Since then I have gone through a myriad of emotions and mind sets to deal with my very different situation. Once upon a time I was completely independent and self sufficient, living in a separate state from my family, making my own money, no one to answer to in the least bit. While many aspects of my Atlanta life were unsettling to me, having freedom and solitude were privileges that I certainly took for granted. Now I find myself in limbo, unemployed, living at home with the parents, back in the suburbs of North Carolina. I make sporadic trips and have a great friend network here to keep my social life alive, but there are still many hours in the day that I must fill while also resisting the influence of my parents' lifestyle and the unavoidable complacency that comes with a lack of responsibility and stimuli.
Reading, watching various documentaries, and working on different writing projects has become my full time job to combat these influences and maintain sanity. As a result of my new exposure, I have learned much more about society, the planet, politics, history, religion, people, my country... you name it. There is so much we blindly accept as truth and I am quickly learning that my fears of living in such a controlled bubble are perfectly valid. Last night I watched "The Corporation" www.hulu.com/search?query=The+Corporation and it articulated perfectly all that I have been utterly convinced of for some time. The influence that these power house companies have on our culture, our individual experiences, our values and tendencies and life styles, are all manufactured by some company out there. It is impossible to avoid the impact and it angers me that they have had a hand in shaping my own psychy whether I like it or not.
This film is only one of many compilations of information that confirm what my instincts have always told me. As I educate myself, I feel compelled to share my findings and show people what they may have never noticed about the world we live in. Many elements of our society are problematic and in order to live happily in our individual lives, we become jaded and shut out all the terrible things that happen around the world, even in our own backyards, every day. As I learn and find myself in this period of limbo, I am feeling more compelled to follow a career that shows people what is really going on and what they can do. At the end of the books I read, the documentaries I watch, the lectures I listen to, there is a hopeful message of change. The change lies simply in the demand of the people. People are generally good but power and greed of a small few have blind sided us from what is best for us. We need to start making small changes and by doing so, we will be able to live in a world that is better for us and generations to come. I devote this blog to my quest in finding a vehicle to educate and share.